It was disgusting and the things that I did in denying my former wife her husband are things that I am still asking God and her for forgiveness for. I was becoming the other woman even back then. I was setting the tracks in place for what would eventually destroy our marriage, my career, and nearly my very life. That is nothing to be proud about believe me. I failed my God, my family, and my friends. I have lost so much in the process but this I do know, there are many men and women like me in the annals of Biblical history. My story is no different than David, who even God Himself chose to say this about him,
‘I have found David son of Jesse, a man after my own heart. He will do everything I want him to do.’
This guy??! What in the world God??? How can You say such a thing about this awful man?? God, do You understand what this guy was capable of doing and then did the worst thing right??
I mean here’s just one thing that David did. One evening he went up to his palace rooftop and he noticed this woman bathing in the cool of the night. He wanted her, he had to have her and he made plans to get her. He devised a scheme to make the wife of another man his. He even knew who this woman’s husband was, his name was Uriah, a warrior in his army. As king, he figured that he could do whatever he wanted to and so he sent one his messengers to go and get this Bathsheba, this beautiful woman. So the messenger did his bidding and David eventually slept with Bathsheba.
God, be merciful to me
because you are loving.
Because you are always ready to be merciful,
wipe out all my wrongs.
2 Wash away all my guilt
and make me clean again.
3 I know about my wrongs,
and I can’t forget my sin.
4 You are the only one I have sinned against;
I have done what you say is wrong.
You are right when you speak
and fair when you judge.
5 I was brought into this world in sin.
In sin, my mother gave birth to me.
6 You want me to be completely truthful,
so teach me wisdom.
7 Take away my sin, and I will be clean.
Wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Make me hear sounds of joy and gladness;
let the bones you crushed be happy again.
9 Turn your face from my sins
and wipe out all my guilt.
10 Create in me a pure heart, God,
and make my spirit right again.
11 Do not send me away from you
or take your Holy Spirit away from me.
12 Give me back the joy of your salvation.
Keep me strong by giving me a willing spirit.
13 Then I will teach your ways to those who do wrong,
and sinners will turn back to you.
14 God, save me from the guilt of murder,
God of my salvation,
and I will sing about your goodness.
15 Lord, let me speak
so I may praise you.
16 You are not pleased by sacrifices, or I would give them.
You don’t want burnt offerings.
17 The sacrifice God wants is a broken spirit.
God, you will not reject a heart that is broken and sorry for sin.
Let that sink for a minute because you too can substitute your very own name right into this just like me. God has promised to do this to our sin and our transgressions against Him and those that He loves:
He has taken our sins away from us
as far as the east is from the west.
Our God has this thing about taking broken pottery and melting it and reforming it for His purposes. We are all broken pots in the hands of this Master Potter. He makes rivers in the middle of a desert and beauty for ashes.
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.”
That last part is the key right there at the end of this verse, He does all of this redeeming and saving and loving so that in the end He may be glorified. That is why we are all here people! We are here out of the good pleasure of our God. He put us all here on this planet and to be the sex that we are and to have the relationships that we have and the careers and families that we have because he simply loves and treasures us as His and we are here because our very existence brings Him great pleasure.
…Because you are precious to me,
because I give you honor and love you…
You see, God is crazy about you, don’t believe me? Well contrary to what Bible haters would say this is what David proclaimed about His God, the same God who loves you and more than you will ever know or than we ever could possibly deserve:
Lord, you have examined me
and know all about me.
2 You know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know my thoughts before I think them.
3 You know where I go and where I lie down.
You know everything I do.
4 Lord, even before I say a word,
you already know it.
5 You are all around me—in front and in back—
and have put your hand on me.
6 Your knowledge is amazing to me;
it is more than I can understand.
7 Where can I go to get away from your Spirit?
Where can I run from you?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
If I lie down in the grave, you are there.
9 If I rise with the sun in the east
and settle in the west beyond the sea,
10 even there you would guide me.
With your right hand, you would hold me.
11 I could say, “The darkness will hide me.
Let the light around me turn into night.”
12 But even the darkness is not dark to you.
The night is as light as the day;
darkness and light are the same to you.
13 You made my whole being;
you formed me in my mother’s body.
14 I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
What you have done is wonderful.
I know this very well.
15 You saw my bones being formed
as I took shape in my mother’s body.
When I was put together there,
16 you saw my body as it was formed.
All the days planned for me
were written in your book
before I was one day old.
17 God, your thoughts are precious to me.
They are so many!
18 If I could count them,
they would be more than all the grains of sand.
When I wake up,
I am still with you…
This loving God is full of mercy and love and wants nothing more than to be found in you. Let Him into your life, He won’t push but He will knock on the door of your life as long as you live. He is ever constantly trying to draw you to Him and He will do whatever it takes to make that happen. He is relentless, He is ever persistent and yet He is so tenderly patient.
20 Behold, I stand at the door [of your heart] and continually knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him (restore him), and he with Me.
You and I both know that you have tried it all, you have been down every road, you have thrown your efforts into so many things in life, why not just open your heart to the One who loves you more than you will ever comprehend? What have you got to lose? Trust me, you only have EVERYTHING to gain. Let Him in, He is waiting for you…